i am officially going insane. i cannot keep this up. last night, ava woke up at 2. she blew her nose and coughed for 2 hours. i never went back to sleep.

i will get a nap today, but this is just not a sustainable way to do things.

the good news: she woke up rested and feeling better. then she used the neti pot and blew the most amazing accumulation of bacterial debris out of her nose. both of us were so astonished, we just stared at it before one of us said "that's really gross."

please please please, i need a peaceful night tonight.